just gonna type and see what comes out. last week was my birthday- i’m officially an oldbie at the age of 20. twenty has always been my scary age… i’m not really sure why- it seems scary enough doesn’t it? just not a teen anymore. bahjeebus. i got a ds lite for my birthday from the boytoy so i was happy enough to add another gadget in my life. i also bought a new purse and wallet- but the purse will only be used when i don’t want to drag around my ds, phone charger, game case, and maybe even my palm- which aren’t always necessary. other than that i got cash which i stuck in my bank card- hoping to afford taking history durring the summer session at hcc. i need to feel good about school again- and summer school/history is always a pick me up. i’m trying this semester- actually studying, reading, and working problems- which doesn’t seem to be enough for organic because it’s so fast and time consuming… besides the addition of physics which is hell on earth. again… sometimes i don’t know what i’m doing or trying. but hell- when i’m not rushing my ass off i have to admit i love what i’m learning. it’s interesting. i wish i had more time. more time to just take a breathe sometimes. and learn. without them colliding and me often saying fuck this! and trying to avoid it yet constantly forcing myself to sit down and read. it’s hell fighting with yourself. it’s hell failing after putting up such a fight. i haven’t given up yet i feel that i’ve already lost.

on another nooooote, my new obsession: Flickr: The what’s in your bag? Pool. I’ve always loved looking in other people’s purses! i’m waiting on a few things to ship in the mail before i add my own shot! I also enjoy keeping up with Michael Helm’s Deviantart… http://pelicanh.deviantart.com/ - which you probably won’t see a shot from me coming soon- but still addictive to watch his work.